(I’m going to be very blunt in this.)
To the everyday average person this is just an old boarded up house. But to me, this house has a lot of dark times. This house brings back a lot of memories that I’m not proud of. But most importantly, this house is a reminder of how far God has taken me.
From 2013-2015, everyday, a group of us would meet and do drugs together. On the weekends, we would have parties. You know, the kind you see on TV. Wild ones filled with everything you can imagine.
When I look at this house I come to tears. God found me in 2013. I was saved and filled with the Holy Ghost. So, for 2 years I would go to work, Get off, party, go home and sleep. Wash, Rinse, Repeat. Everyday for 2 years. While the whole time being convicted every single day of the things I’m doing. I know I’m not the only one who has experienced this.
Paul, in Romans 7:17-20 says.” So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.”
I’m glad I’m not the only one though right? There is so much power in knowing you are not the only one going through something. It’s a dark place when all you want to do is serve God with all of your heart because he has shown his love to you. But on the other hand your sin nature is completely and utterly opposite of the spirit of God and wants to fulfill his desires. Man, when I think about the scripture that says the faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. Looking back, that’s A L L that I had was just this little faith. By no means am I perfect today. But God has done S O many great things in my life since then. Things if I told you, you would be amazed. But who God calls you, he calls you. Your his, your his child, the work he wants to do in you WILL come to pass.
No, I’m not where I want to be, but praise God. I’m not where I used to be. So, let me ask you. Do you praise God and thank God everyday you aren’t who you used to be. When I look back at that Isiah that was in that house. Only one thing comes to mind. God made a way when there was no way. God started a work in me. God started giving me his desires. God is the God to cause you to flourish and go from Glory to Glory. As I sit here and type this, please understand that I don’t have my life completely together. I struggle everyday, but it’s no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. As I sit here and type this I can’t help but to be absolutely moved and awestruck by the wonderful works God has done in my life. Its amazing, its wonderful, HE IS AMAZING AND HE IS WONDERFUL. No matter your situation, God is in control, he’s already in your future. If all you have is a mustard seed type of faith. That’s all you need! Start rejoicing because the way is being made clear! It’s already clear, rejoice now!
I think it’s important to remember where we come from and who deserves the glory. There’s only one who deserves the Glory. There’s only one who can make crooked ways straight. There’s only one who can bring you from death to life. There’s only one who knew you from the beginning and will be with you for all of eternity, It’s God. Trust, Seek, and worship him no matter your circumstance and watch him come through every single time.
Freebie: its a blessing to me to see that this house is boarded up. To me, it symbolizes the old has passed away and behold all things have become new. Someday those boards are going to be removed from that house and its going to be restored. Just like you are.